Love still stands when everything else falls.

Confuse

2010-10-24T15:12:00.002+08:00

Why is this feeling striking me again?

Remember we had this huge fight at your chalet.. I may forgive but i wont forget. You dont know how hurt i am..My heart seems to have shattered into a million pieces. I never expect this thing from you,the very least not from you. I expect to much from you and my hope for you are as high as the mountain. Well thats my mistake thats the biggest mistake ever cause i expect too much from you.

I miss us too.

2010-09-18T16:00:00.006+08:00

Its gonna be our 4 months next saturday.

In this 4 months,slowly i am learning alot of things about you. But for the past 1 month we've been arguing alot. & i hate it. We fought and we make up again. Most of the arguements started because of me and i wont deny that.

For the past 1 month,you changed, you hardly tell me abt your whereabouts, you hardly call, you hardly msg but dont get me wrong! Im not asking you to wht you call it "report "to me 24 hours. You told me once ïf there is anything that is bothering me i shld tell you. But whn i told you You've changed you deny it. and thats one of the arguement that we had. Sometimes, i know that i am being insecure,making assumptions. tht shows i love you soo much. You snapped at me when i told you tht. You reject my calls, you nv reply my msges. For the past 1 month i tried to make things work. Now im tired, not tired of you but tired of trying to make things better whn the end result: dissapointment and arguements. I dn care anymore,i cant be bothered. Tht doesn't mean i don love you anymore i still doo. But for now The dissapoinment tht i am facing now is overtaking the love that i have for you.

tired. Im sorry.

I can even count how many time you say

"ï love you"for the past 1 month.

Or there isnt any to count at all.

everything.

2010-09-08T02:18:00.003+08:00

Lately we have been fighting and arguing for no valid reason even if there is i jus find it irrelevant. I want the old syafiq back.

The shafiq tht call me up on the phone even jus for a minute jus to hear my voice.

The shafiq tht nv says pape lah whn we are arguing.

The syafiq tht call me up even how hectic his day is.

I miss the old syafiq period.

Family.

2010-08-22T13:17:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was pretty awesome for me.. The whole Rahman's family came over to mummy 's house. Let me tell you, the house almost collapsed,hahahahaha...I love them soo much. Its been so long since all of us get together and spent time and eat together. A family

that stays together eats together. JOnies gf came doen Abangs gf also came down. Uncle saad asked me where is my boyfriend i answered"working night shift lehh"he say bring him over eat together. i smiled ,infact i was so happy tht that sentence came out from uncle's mouth. But it aint gonna be that easy cause i and shafiq need to convinced papa. As for saad

IM SO PROUD OF YOU THAT YOU ARE GONNA BE A FATHER !!!

and for me we will be having a new member in our family.;))

why?

2010-08-14T21:48:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i myself have no freaking idea whts wrong with me throwing tantrum at you for no other reasons. Deep down me i jus felt tht im not good enough for you. At times i jus have the sudden urge of picking fault at you.. At times im alright with what you told me abt your past and at times alsoo whn im sitting alone i jus felt insecure and felt that i am jus not good enough for you. Paranoid? I don think sooo...i jus freaking hate this feeling..maybe i jus felt tht im not good enough for you. Fullstop.

Reality check.

2010-06-24T09:36:00.003+08:00

On monday, i went to the theme park. Of course with companies right?

Syafiq Shah, Yoshren must, Yaty & last of all Abi zamrin.
The guy who got free tixs for us is Abi. I must say tht escape theme park is getting more more and more boring. I don know maybe its because due to there are more lesser rides? Maybe. & on that following day, The weather is scorching hot tht my fat cheecks felt as if it has been cooked or something. Haunted house was the first pit stop then followed by thee sippy thingy( hahaah! the sudden flashback of shahrin face, awesome ride.) Then of course gold-cart!( racer lah seh) last stop, the toy station. Shahrin managed to win all games tht he played for-___-.
Prizes: a chipanzee and a turtle. And he is sooo SWEET cause he gave the dolls tht he won to me and yaty. Thn because shafiq shah is such a putri lilin, they decided to go karaoke at grandlink. Dont ask me! I nv sing before except in the toilet( home toilet).
Tht mr shafiq got hungry so me and him grab a quick bite upstairs the karaoke tingy. Theres tis two mat rep who walks opposite our direction and they were singing some i don knw jiwang songs! Thn i turned to shafiq, he look so pissed off! i was like ehh whts wrong with you. Knowing him, tht he won tell anyting wn his pissed off i asked him thru text whn i got home!
He said tht those two fellows were looking at me and singing. HAHAAAAHAHA!
Abg transcom jealous or wht! then he added they think:" they have tattoo i scared?i arrest them thn they know!"
haahahahah!

love;)

2010-06-13T16:10:00.003+08:00

Dear shafiq,

You know how i felt towards you for the past few years. Now look what had happened? Im crazy in love with you. You took the initiative to talk to me on fb and now we are an item. An innocent item which always have no idea where to go and will always ask each other over and over again where are we heading to next. Those cute quarrels between me and iphone will always meke me smile to sleep. Each day you will make sure ill eat despite the fact tht you knw i wont even if the whole world is asking me too. You"ll assure me, that things will be perfectly fine whn im feeling insecure. You don knw how blessed i am to have you as my boyfriend.

Those bumpy rides on your bike ; youll make sure tht i am comfortable.When theres a hump ahead your hand will be on my thigh to make sure i won jump up high. Constant liss on the forehead made me feel warm being with you. Maybe this are all ordinary things but i feel the love;)

ALOT OF LOVE;)

School lah SEHY!

2010-04-25T13:12:00.003+08:00

Its only two weeks of school and my classmates are already potraying their creativity in class.Just look at the picture up there.Cute huh??Boys will always be boys.Well-well,Ive been enjoying school so far.Its fun i have fun classmates,and they are very very irritating okay.TRUST ME..In ite simei there are only two classes of sports managementYeah i know jus 2 classes.So when sports science took place the A and B will combine classes at the lecture hall...Uhuh...combine class...They are good people,very good people.

Well what can i say,it seems tht most of the courses in ite simei doesnt really like the sports managememt people.Dont asked me y?i have no idea at all why theres so much hatred.They say we are soo stuck up!!is it?haiyooo...i also don knwwhy they have this deep impression towards us...But who cares abt what people say the main factor is we got into a good course.Thts abt it. so walla babies.Going on with life.THank you chyening for the pics.

2010-03-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

baby-baby what am i suppose to do now.Youve made me confused. WHY-WHY???
Its a mistake maybe i shoudnt-i jus shouldnt!not meeting you i shouldnt have.This feeling the old feeling have come again.i don like the fact tht im always thinking abt you,i dont like the fact tht i always thik abt all this stuff.I don like it i jus don like this.Seriously i feel like killing u.
Well done maria,you brought it upon urself.

Chill outttt!

2010-03-20T16:59:00.003+08:00

Firstly i would like to say tht i don feel like blogging but i don know why the hack am i doing here.The sudden urge of wanting to delete this blog is very very tempting but what the hell,some-THING is stopping me!why ehk?

Who cares!

Okay back to reality!Msg hasanah and i also msg sara!damn i miss this two girls.Abt me and hsanah(phew)Come on what era am i staying in if i still want to keep grudges.Well,where can this grudge bring me too?Am i right?I miss-ULTRAAA miss my superb duperb girlfriends!Planning to have some catching up time this few weeks before me and hasanah starting school!Hell yeah!3 more weeks to school starting!cant waittt!Im feeling shagged enough to work any longer.Helping mam is dreadful enough can?Tired!

This outing will confirm again once all my hunnies get back to e when they are free.and of course pictures will be up lah dehhh!

Dear Mr A,

2010-02-18T22:24:00.003+08:00

Okay lets get this straight.Why are you doing this too me?This thing or lets just say this game tht you are playing with me is getting me confused and irritated.I still remember clearly,who did you choose.Your ex or me.And clearly you said she is meant for you.Okay i lived with the fact and moved on,my life was steady and calm,till you just reemerged again in my life out of no where.This is soo irritating.Sending me mushy and corny night msgs,you think it could worked tht way.Im not a small kid well not anymore.I have feelings too and you hurt me whn we used to get into relationship.Secretly msging other girls,whts worse,msging your ex and you had feelings again for her,WHILE you're in a relationship with me.Sinec you started msging me,i could sense something fishy is going on.I put my doubts aside and just thot its jus a friendly msg.But then everyday you've been msging.And i found out you broke up and saying when we were together you DID love me.You think i am one of those rebound girl?WELL NOT LIKELY MR!

SO NOW TELL ME MR A WHTS REALLY YOUR AGENDA?

Bon VOYAGE ABGGG!

2010-02-13T22:05:00.005+08:00

ABANG IRFAN!
Wow time past very fast.The last time i could remember he was sitting in this living room whlie playing with his lappy.The last time He was here i was merajuk-ing with him.and now abg is gone.He will be gone for 4 years.Can you imagine that.4 YEARS!!

nobody will listen to me whining and complaining anymore!nobody else could replace you.& i will wait for you to come back home.:)

I LOVE YOU! MY ABG!

Reunion!

2010-02-08T22:41:00.005+08:00

Irfan,shiddiq,me,nadya,berlianan and hanis.
Aini,me and berliana.
I have to admit meeting them for the very first time after a very long time not meeting or contacting each other is a tough one!I dragged myself down ,from pasir ris to jurong.One solid hours sitting on the train really made my butt numb.BUT ,all of it was worth it!=)Great night GREAT COMPANY!

next outing again!
@8th feb oicnic at east coast.=)

friendship

2010-01-30T09:22:00.007+08:00

i love you.As much i hate to do this i really do.I dont know what had happen to us but i really hope that this will be over.A moment of anger takes over my mind.Sometimes just sometimes i wish tht i could undo whatever had happened as if there is an undo button.How i wish i could gather each one of my friends back again.My GIRLY-GIRLFRIENDS.I love you guys.I REALLY DO.

WITH LOVE,
MAREA

I SCREWed UP IN FRIENDSHIP.I SCREWED UP IN LOVE.SO I GUYS,SCREW MY LIFE.

<3

2010-01-10T20:45:00.003+08:00

Its been so long since i last had this feeling.This feeling where i will keep on smiling upon receiving his msg and smiling and laughing to myself while reading his msg.Ive not been having this feeling for soo long.Then when this feeling started to emerge in me,i jus feel clueless.Many times i told myself not to put my hopes too high cause in the end if i hope too much it will just fall apart especially when everything jus didnt or couldnt get into place.I like him.Yes i do.LOVE?maybe?certainly not yet very sure abt that.His bben there.When i 'm in low spirits.besides my gfs.His been there.When i complain to him abt the guys in sakura he like abg-abg lah advise!haha.Altho we seldom meet up and talked on the phone.I don know.The feeling jus grew,Without me realizing.
heve you ever met any guy who baked 20 cupcakes for you on your birthday?
have any guy fetch you frm school or work,the fact tht he knew he could jus spent time on better things?
Those little things makes a big difference.Maybe i am jus shiok sendiri!:)
He need time for him to settle down.I know i understand.Im happy that at least its not like before.Like im waitting for.....

Mama and kakak always say i am gatal/mentel.I don mind.hahaha.And they say i don know how to look at guys.

"ädek you know guys who are nuts abt you,you tak suka,but the one who booh layan you,you like."ABG say.
I smiled then i realized the one who boh layan me shows that his different than the others!:)

kambing pakai coli pon kau akap handsome!"kakak will say!
tskkk...

hahahah.

2009-12-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

I hardly have time for myself right now.Im broke.sOON GONNA BE JOBLESS AGAIN!
Paman is asking her sis i think i don know.All i want is too just get out frm sakura too much things has happened and i think its better to just go on with life.Furthermore im just too tired.Too much drama i tell you.TOO MUCH!
all i want to say is im glad that ive met wonderful friends there but at the same time how i wished all those things can be undone.

P/S:ive never met such an hypocrite guy before!OMG!assss sia you.
Such a good story teller can win the EMMY AWARD SIA YOU!

Had a blast WEB CAMING WITH MY KICK ASS GF!

2009-12-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

Theres alot more but i managed to only grab one the others is wif RARA!!!
sapppppppppp...she crazy sia!!!Nevertheless aku sayang kau gilaaaa!!!!
Its been so long since i met this gila...next week maybe meet her up!that gila girlll!!!
saynag kau gila!!!!

P/s:
What am i to you?Am i just your friend or what?WHy are you treating me this way??
why \?why?i just dont get it!

Dumb-founded.

2009-11-24T23:41:00.004+08:00

i feel like knocking my head on the wall.WHAT THE HECK I WAS THINKING MAN?I really dont know.I was so irritating then that i just forgot abt the other party feeling.IT totally slipped off my mind that the other party could be angry.Who wants to be reminded abt the past?especially the unhappy ones?WHo wants to talk abt their exes?
OMG!MAreea-mareea.Now the other party is angry?How fantastic is that?just because of my own stupidity!I feel so guilty.He need space and i Left him sometime alone.

Im scared.Im scared of being in love again and being hurt all over again.Cause the last time i remembered i was crying and the feeling was soo heartwrenching.Still fresh in my mind.

Whatever it is.IM SORRY!!

Gala night!

2009-11-21T12:30:00.006+08:00

I had an awesome night.After the dinner all of us head to clarke quay!We walk all the way okay!
Then we had 3 tubes of shesha's and some drinks!Desmond treats me shots.I don know what is it called.Then i start talking crap!ULTRA CRAP!I made daniel walk one big round around the clarke quay!And this sweet boy accompanied me cause his scared that i will do anything stupid.hahaha.I cant even walked straight.Then we met ammar!Komal boyfren!Then went for drinking session again!Then i cant take it anymore as i was bored and komal sent me to the hotel room and i had a bath and pheww...I feel so much better BUT im having a hangover,even right now.We had breakfast at macdonald,4 in the morning.Then slept throughout the morning!

I want to thank daniel for taking care of me.
I want to thank Reuben for taking care of me alsooo
(he got so worried when my hands turneed icy cold)!!!
KOMAL BABY!!tHANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME when im falling.
Samantha,she also gone case like mee...=)
I love you GUYS!

Part-time

2009-11-19T09:10:00.004+08:00

As much as i miss and scared of the new environment i know i need to go on.Im scared!Imgonna miss everything now.I miss waking up late,i miss talking on the phone till late at night,i miss lazing on the couch and doing nothing.Now ive to work my ass out to feed for my own expenses,not really lah!I jus want to enlighten mama burden since mama is having her holiday.
HOLIDAY=NO INCOME
Get what i mean?nahhh...Not being forced or whatever you call it,i did it willingly and sincerely.Dont expect me to just sit around the house for 4 solid months!UNLESS YOU want me to turn in to a balloon.heheh.=)
marea is practicing truth and charity!The school motto!haha.
WTH-_____-
Ive been editing NAIA name but it cant be in capital letters!!!Frustrated lah can!

IM BACK!

2009-11-18T14:59:00.002+08:00

I decided to movee back to blogger!!!its soo much convenient!!!i like!

sunset.

2009-06-08T22:32:00.004+08:00

Sometimes by letting go things that hurts you,will be better.
cause i believe that God has his own reason when he does that.
by letting go something,you will gain something way much better than what you have lost!
thank god!amin!=))
i know its abit confusing!hahaha....
well sunday after tuition i met noor and we drove to changi beach when his printing shop is closed!
"GOSSIP LAH"
hahaha....no lah...we talk from A to Z...
tHE SUNSET VIEW WAS SO FREAKIINGGG NICE!I SWEAR!
right noor??It was bloody red mixed with pinkish colour!
nice meeting you and knowing you=))

Cuppy cake.

2009-06-05T21:31:00.002+08:00

He made this for me and send it on my birthday!!He drove all the way from his house.
How sweet is that!!&when he was sending this cuppy cake i was already in my PYJAMAS!
hehe=))

A BIG THANK YOU!

2009-06-04T23:21:00.009+08:00

A BIG-BIG THANK YOU too ALL THE LOVELIES!!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!inDEED ITS A SURPRISE!THANK YOU ALL FOR CELEBRATING IT WiTH ME!!!I LOVE YOU GUYS ALOT!!!!thanks for all the gifts!

CIK IDAH AND THE SMALL ONES I LOVE YOU GUYS,THANKS EHK!MAMA TOO!

ESPECIALLY TO NORFAEZAH BTE RAMLAN FOR MAKING IT HAPPEN!!SAYANG KAU LAH GILA!!!

IM LOST FOR WORDS...I LOVE YOU GUYS...Everybody that have wish me and my phone just wont stop vibrating!!!love-love.I WONT FORGET THIS MOMENT!NOSTALGIC MOMENT!!

last minute,Noor came with his gift FOR me.20 cupcakes!!!

thanks alot man!!!hahahaha...sedap lah!!!i will upload the cupcake photo kayss!!!

i love you too my new friend!You're the last present ive got AND THE BEST!hahaha...thanks your mum for me!

Happy birthday to ANAK RAM!

2009-06-04T00:40:00.007+08:00

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mwAhH!!

G0sh i feel different!=)

i discovered something!alamak!i dont know what to say!

Noor thanks ehk.hah.

if only you dont do magics on urself that frequent,it will be better!

A year older.

2009-06-03T19:08:00.002+08:00

tomorrow mark the day that i will be turning 17.

See how time flies!

I STILL REMEMBER THE DAY THAT I AM STILL IN SEC 1.

centre parting hair,long skirt and bags that keep on bouncing on my butt.Those were the times baybeh.

Then here i am still strong,schooling in hai sing catholic school trying my very best for my O'level.

Turning 17!WOW!
Now i really have to think about my future and set my goals straight and set my priorities right.

There's positive and negative view when you turn a year older.Parents expect the best from you and parents gives you freedom bit by bit.So hell yeah i am turning 17.

Thank you mama,papa and kakak.

not forgetting my honey bunnies.

i miss you girls!

besok gym hasanah??

yeay!!!

Flu bug!

2009-06-02T11:53:00.006+08:00

(Adeq miss you soo much kak ayna!)
Imagine you are sweating away and you keep on sneezing!
i swear irritating!
this is what i am going through.
i dont feel the excitement cause i dont feel the need too.
You spoiled my whole month MR.I just have no mood to celebrate anything.
how to celebrate when gf are all busy with families.

One more thing,why guys EGO are very high well i think they are higher than the mount everest?
girls have ego to but we give in,well depends on the situation given.Guys no matter how crystal clear they are in the wrong,they just acted as if its nothing.
When we girls did something wrong they will just kick up a BIG fuss!Now tell me who is the unreasonable one!

period.i am not in the mood for any celebration!
When i think about IT again,it just make me on fire!
ANYBODY GOT AN EXTINGUISHER?

boo-cheka-boo

2009-05-29T21:35:00.005+08:00

Hello world,
i just got back home.Yunos sent me home and i made him carry my shoe bag!.School was effing tiring and i really-rreally need to rest!Went gym with hasanah baby today and sammy baby cant make it due to ehem!(=
Its been so long since i go to the gym to shake that fatty away thats in me.Yes i am losing weight!YESSA!!last time i was fat alright now i can fit in all the clothes in the wardrobe without any fats coming out like they used too!YAHOOOO!After we went gym yunos met me up and sent me home!so yeah that's about it.I was hyper,in fact very hyper that he freak out.He walked away from me okay!BAd siA hE!Then he walked towards me and hold my hand and asked"you okay tak?"hahaha.Kental!You know the feeling of being hyper and restless at the same time that when you mixes it together and it turn out to be like a rojak?Ya-ya thats what i'm feeling!I was dragging my foot like nobody buisness that yunos need to swing the shoebag towards my direction and it hurt my thigh!pain lah can!So thats about it!
Rememeber the previous post that i say i wont msg him?hahaha...i did it lah people!
He msg me!!!We are hanging.;/Anybody have a rope to save us??

I don't care mood!

2009-05-28T04:15:00.011+08:00

Well,this few days i have been such a pain in the ass for *****.I made him angry for three,four days straight?i felt a sense of satisfacton when i made him angry!i dont kno why.Number one cause i want to find out and convinced myself that he changed for the better,must be wondering right,why i'm doing all this?I still do love him.He promised me that he will change and once he change for the better,we will talk about it.BUTT,I regret clearing up things with you,maybe if i leave you hanging like you used too,it will be soooooooo much better!=)
Last few days,i've been thinking to much in fact way too much.Everyy night you will keep on lingering in my mind.My cheeks,blanket and pillow have been my witness for my weaknesses.Now i've made my decision.
1)i wont msg you anymore,if you dont i dont care
2)what you want to do just go ahead i dont care
3)Who you go with to the club i dont care
4)where do you want to go i dont care
5)who do you want to go hugging in the club i DONT FARKING CARE!!!!
Speaking about hugging!arggghhh!!
This is what i think,so what if i contact with 3 or 4 guys atleast i dont go around hugging people when i am high or drunk,orr whatever you called it!Yes the girl,came to you but somehow or rather it takes two hands to clap remember?
till then.
Now i need someone to hug(really badly)

Cik noi get well soon kays!!!!
jon type this on my wallpaper:

evErYdaY iS a NeW dAy!So DoN't Hope That EverYThinG Will B oUhkayS!

Ass!I was expecting something postive in life that will motivate me.

one more thin he just left me speechless when we talk about transportation!

Perempuan hidup memang menumpang per!!!

bastard sia jon.

Thank you jonie for listening to me when we're in the car!Really appreciate it alot.

Altho your advise really like one toot.

i'm still thanking you!atleast you are listening to me.

Boredom kills.

2009-05-23T11:29:00.002+08:00

Currently i am at mama's new shop and i swear i'm dying of boredom.We'll be back around 2 and i'l go out!hahahaha....
Jonnie,kakak and me maybe some of jonnie friend(bom-bom ehk?)..i wanted to ask abg along but jon say abg busy!I wonder whats his busy about??nevermind-nevermind..
Really hope you can make it mister!=))
kick ball-kick ball!~forever sia you!
sheesha maybe???
i want to go out!!!!stresss lahh can????
School have been pressurizing this few days and i dont like it!=(
teacher have been naggy and bla-bla-bla!

Spammers

2009-05-21T23:41:00.008+08:00

first of all,I love you!!=D
i got a spamm by somebody maybe he/she?shall call "it" a "SHEMALE"

like i told you guys before!

"if you don't like me fark off!"

"daniel4e6"=dude get a life!!Sooooooo Childish!Haiyo!!
5N's rocksss!i don't blame this"shemale"!We tend to get alot of enemies and people having grudges againts us!I don't know why!so yeah!hahahaha.....I dont get affected at ALL!!BOOOOO!!! kakak=nevermind kakak dont waste time i think this shemale havent matured lah.. so yeah!

ADAM LAMBERT YOU ARE HOTTTT!!!!

baby,how i wish

2009-05-21T10:56:00.002+08:00

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes....
.To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

baby those were the things that you had done for me & how i really wish that you could do more than this.But baby i am contented enough that you have been there for me and teach me the meaning of love;love.It aint tht easy baby.

happy?

2009-05-19T08:58:00.008+08:00

Convincing enough that i'm happy?

Today i enjoyed being in school despite of the long braggy hours.

What can i say all of us are so happy.We joked,we talked,we laughed again and we joked again.

Hasanah,sam,bryan and I sat around the table and draw up a Future plan for our future(mind map)-free period.I had a very hard time convincing sam and bryan about me being a nurse.hahahaha....Asss lah bryan and for sam as usual argue and argue!hahaha...Nevertheless i still love them!Me and hasanah cant stop laughing about________.Nevrmind,i love you babe.

Hasanah text me up,thanking me for brighting up her day with all the laughters and stupid jokes! and .........Well she text me quite long and i forgot some of the parts.(awwwwwww!Its my pleasure darling,like i say i love to make you guys laugh!Atleast it help me to get my mind off that thing.)now im confuse!what are we?

Cold

2009-05-18T22:05:00.006+08:00

I miss him alot yes i do.
People must be saying "get over it lah"
I am not over it.It isn't that easy people.
No matter how many guys i talk too,You are still in my freakin mind.
Same goes to you right?I don't know whether you're telling me the truth.
I really don't know.I really don't!
I cant make up my mind.
It wasn't easy to meet you up and acted as if nothing had happen.
We talked things out,well we tried to!But both of us ended up being angry at each other.
I was soo-soo angry,sad &dissapointed that i just broke down.
Never thought i would do that right?
like i say,I'm just a normal girl who fall in & fall out of love.
Imagine for the past six month+ i never ever cried infront of you and when i did you freak out,lost and felt scared.I was holding back my tears for too long boy that i just blow up at that very moment and cried.Lucky for me i never saw your face,i bet its funny.He panicked and pass me tissue,well that's my tissue actually.At the tone of your voice you never expected me to cry right?think what i super girl? I never knew that i will feel so much better after crying it all out after holding it back quite long after we broke off.Crying on your shoulder gives me the wamth that i need.For all this while i am showing everybody that i am coping well when the fact is i'm not,i'm devastated.People are convinced that i am alright even he is.

I dont make this decision,
I was force to be in this situation.
If i don't do this will you ever wake up?

told you I LOVE THEM;

2009-05-17T09:21:00.006+08:00

tht's my papa boy!(guess who)

cheeky danny!

hearul said:"dont want ah like gay!"

i dont like iggy cause he run very fast!

look-look my hair quite long rite? abit rite!

mE & iggy was the only one aware of the camera!

Home sweet home for me & samu!

I want a gorgeous 3/4 skirt with designs on it!

a gold watch!!

mama adeq nak!!!Birthday blh??

jonnie.

2009-05-16T11:50:00.004+08:00

really not in a good mood rite now!!!
i'm pissed with everybody!!!like now??
JOn why are you working???
i badly need you,i want to go out!!
I want to tell you what he say all that stuff!!
i don't like this!

i need a puff now! oh my my addiction is coming back!fark my promise to him!=(

seriously whats your will ah boy????

i love them.

2009-05-15T21:43:00.001+08:00

MaRkInG dAy

2009-05-14T09:14:00.006+08:00

Today was fun!!hahahaha....there's plenty of photos,wait till i grab it frm hearul,wei kang and dee!You know what there's this indian navy!come let me tell you the whole story!

Once upon a time,three ladies is sitting at the mat while ALL the boys went to play volleyball.Then this two navy indian guys:

Him:"Can i take pic with you guys"

Sam:no!you want me to take pic of the tree? (wtf sam)

Him:its okay if cannot i just want to take with her!

(pointing at me !)
me:No-no-no!!
Him:why-why-why??

(wahhh i feel like punching his face!imitate my voice!)
Me:later my BOYFRIEND SCOLD! (liar sia marea)

Him:i will talk with your boyfriend!i want to make my girlfriend jealous so you can make yours jealous too!

(errr,hello i got taste okay!)

Me:Errr i got to go!

Him:Thanks for being so rude! (wahhhh manners!!!whose the rude one here!)

I swear they freak me out!I was perspiring lah;cold sweat!Then the boys came back!We told them what happen?they say"what if ang moh ask you!confirm want right!"

thats different thing lah k!

belongs to weikang!I want!!!!

See sam face like tourist from korea!

REuby shave until like this!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

today im not in school cause its marking day!!!
yahoo!!!so the whole class planned to go sentosa!
i ssooooo cant wait for that...n1 and n2!i bet its gonna be a long day for me& definitely funnnn!
The boys called me up and ask to bring MARBLE!!&why on earth do they need that?
chiaoo...will upload photos!
i heard HEARUL is bringing his camera along!!
hearul camera=camwhore PEOPLE!!!
hahaha....Im going with the fun bunch of people.Confirm KECOHS!!

Shocked

2009-05-13T15:08:00.002+08:00

holla people,
okay i just discovered some news!Three word SHOCK LAH CAN???
i dont know how to react..i feel so dumb right now?I just dont want to take the risk of losing a friendship because of a guy.To me that's so LOWWW class to fight over guys!Actually,guys are jerks as they feel very proud when girls pulling each other hair for him.PUHLEESEE!hahaha..There are girls like that okay,its as if theres no more guys in the world that you need to fight for that guy and worse!Some of them like to snatch other people's boyfriend!for what??

Okay world,i am coping well right now!I feel soooo happy.
Do you feel the FREEDOM people???
I DO!!!hahahaha.....
happy lah deyyy!
Over the moon=))
i have freedom,i have good mood,i have great friends;Yunos is my friend people!
I DONT NEED A MAN!(for now only)hahaha.

My month;June

2009-05-12T20:06:00.006+08:00

pardon my face!

All the tired face after the celebration;Only for me.i have a long day okay?

I love june holiday!!!Indeed it's my special month.
I was bornt on that month.Guess what people ?i can jollywell forget abt having a celebration cause i have block-booking for 2 solid weeks.Irritating.All the BASI PIC.

Wish list:
I want a big birthday bash.
I want my loved ones to be with me.
I want all my friends to be there,be it my primary or secondary.
I want alot-alot of presents.
I want good o'level results.
& BIG cake??
can?

I'm the next door subway women.right sammy?

Taken

2009-05-11T18:29:00.007+08:00

today was urber boring.woke up by mama nagging.Papa and mama went JP and for me stay at home,THE WHOLE DAY!If i were still with yunos,gurantee i will be out,If lah!Okay so yesterday the whole family went tekka to eat for mama's day and a small farewell for bibik.Before tuition went to mummy's house!Tha keciq's were all there,Jon raihan,Abg MARC USAMAH,mummy and most importantly,mak &abah.After tuition papa pick me up and i can't meet somebody.Booo!!Then get ready again,BON VOYAGE to bibik.dada.

Certainly i've moved on and showing everybody a brave front.
noor,you are very sweet!!thank you!
*hasanah i need you badly,my gf!

I wonder if you hate me for doing this to you?

Happy mama's day

2009-05-11T11:35:00.005+08:00

I love you even tho you can be very naggy!

You advise me alot mama.Even though you always say that you are tired and all that,i know you still care for me.You always share with me problems when we are both alone at home.Sometimes what you say really amazad me.Gosh i love you mama.You're a strong women who still have a will to smile and help people in need even tho you yourself is in diff.Especially,abt this sensitive issue _____.

Love you!

It doesn't matter what gift you give your mum on that day.

It's abt how you appreciate your mum in your daily life.

There's no use showing your gratitude only on Mother's day itself cause she only feel special for only one day.

What i'm trying to say is appreciate her and make her feel special everyday.

Mama we hardly have a good talk,but when we had a great talk you will just left me speechless.

i love you mama.

Undeniable

2009-05-09T21:35:00.010+08:00

I wont deny that i miss you,
i wont deny that i still love you,
i wont deny that i cant get over you for only a few days.

i'm just a normal human being,who is a girl,
Who is born to love and fall out of love.
The relationship that we build up for 6 plus months will not just dissapear from my mind.
I've said i moved on but deep inside i am struggling.
Nevertheless,i am still moving on.If not now,when?

Initially,todays plan was to get some stuff for mama.But kakak who wont stop being a lazy bumm refuses to go anywhere after she changed on her pyjamas.so yeahh,maybe we just belanja mama tomorrow k?
For the past two days,I spent time with my families.hah.Its been so long.Its been so long.When you look at my parents,at one point they are arguing about a tiny weeny matter,and at the next moment they laugh!weird enough huh?I myself dont understand.

Boy everywhere i go just remind me off you
It ain't that easy.
i sound as if i dont care when you text me or called me!but omg it just so hard.
like i say i wont turn back.
Indeed i am stubborn.Thats me..

I am bloghopping and i am smiling away and amzed that all my primary achool friends have really changed!When i say changed i really mean REALLY CHANGED~Miss them.Childish moments lah.

Single ladies.

2009-05-07T15:47:00.007+08:00

naia sayang!

First it was hasanah
second sam then
its me..
i think we had been cursed or something..
fuckk them lah...

Anyway the girls are very sweet.
We spent quality time with each other.
Since we finished our poa paper eaRLy we had 4 solid hours to waste.
So all these single ladies go to pasir ris park and talk about life and about our exes talking about what actually happen and in future when we work all that.
well i love them alot.
chiao.
naia baby thank you soo much!

GF we will get thru this together!We just dont be lesbian.

anyways i miss those fellows up here^-----^(zayna your face naughty nyer!)

Dead and gone

2009-05-06T18:09:00.005+08:00

You made me this way.
Every fairytale doesnt end with a happy ending.
thanks yunos for everything.You made it happen yunos.Not me!
**no turning back anymore!
i promise!
Move on and not gonna turn back like i used too.
i wonder why?
why i fall for you instead of others?
why wont you understand me like the others?
why cant you be patient with me?
why cant you be nice to me when i have a very bad day??
why?just tell me why?

its not that i am saying you are very cruel to me and you never gave me love..
but at times when i badly need you.
you just aren't by my side.
blame it on me cause i never had time for you rite!.
Thats what our last conversation you talk about right??
"have we?have we?"
thats the question you keep on shooting at me.
what i feel is that,you never understands me and the most important thing you never think about my feelings.Your excuse will be that you are angry and you cant control yourself.

i put away my ego aside and call you up expecting for a friendship to build up
instead of a frienship you gave me attitude.
grudges!just because i broke off with you?is that it?
you wont know that things may work out right if we still be friends?
you just wont know.
BUT its okay yunos.Forget that i called and the friendship offer.
when you cut off the line today,it just shows you are not interested.
i get you!
BEST OF LUCK in life for you!!!

Mattt Re{p}!

2009-05-05T14:54:00.007+08:00

he look like mat rep in this photo!^____^

Oh well, i just got back from school.

chatting with Noor and jonnie!

Jonnie kecoh sia..asking me when am i going to meet him?

cause its been months since i last saw him that means its been months i never go to mummy house!

Cuzzy dah majuuu per!He changed.But his still irritating!

later i meet you lah k?When exam finish.

You save money many-many cause you want to treat me kan?

heh.

chiao!

Dizzy spell

2009-05-04T20:48:00.007+08:00

iritating as My face can be just like the headache!

my head is spinning like a CYCLONE!
i know cyclone have no link to the world.

but i dont give a damn.
I've yet to study for my POA.Accounts seh marea.

Which i hate it.HATE lah can?

Its freakin diff people,believe me.

I feel like vommitting and i am telling you guys i am not pregnant.

hah.

cause alot of people have this impression like this.

me:headache lah i want to vommit
somebody:aiyoo!!!whose child?
irritating right!Dont even do anything how to have baby?
Think what i Mother Mary ah?
maybe i have been starving myself lately,that's one of the highest possibilities for having this dizzy spell!

Baby;

2009-05-03T14:57:00.006+08:00

I know you are angry about what had happen.
Do you think i want that to happen?
Yes i know he is not suppose to act that way but you should understand the situation.
Do you think i am not angry about what had happen?
Stop talking about what had happen,but you insist on talking about it.
Do you think i dont feel hurt?

dwell about it baby,just a little and its more than enough to make me happy.
The pain that you are feeling is double the pain that i had to face.

Till then.

kristina just called me from america!!!!!!!!
how i wish you were like other guys who remembers my paper and sent just a simple text to wish me luck.
how i wish you were just like the other guys who will be ther for me.
how i wish you were like the other guys who will just smile at me and let me do what i want.
how i wish you were like the others who remembers our anniversary.
how i wish you could think before you say anything.

2009-05-02T11:06:00.002+08:00

darlings!!!!!!!!!
i miss you girls alot and no matter what,i repeat no matter what we will still be the girlfriends like we used to be last time.I can assure you that nothing had change and WILL change you see..
so komal baby,dont worry and faster make a schedule and put us in your schedule.You are busy with shatec right babe?For kristina i dont expect you to fly from america to singapore buttt i just want you to know i love you alot...

believe me all of us do talk about you guys.
it was soo random when in the middle of having maths lesson to say we miss you alot guys.
so dont worry komal and krissey sayang.
you guys are still in our mind and most imporatntly,IN OUR HEART!

Movie update.

2009-05-01T12:59:00.009+08:00

What can i say? the movie was great!!!Actually i am not a die hard fan of zac efron but after watching this movie,i don't mind being one of his die hard fan..His hot lah people!'His eyes is soo convincing,His body is suppeerr hoot!!!I like it when he had a makeover,in the movie of course.So people watch this,you won't regret it!It's a recommendation.Although,we don't get the best seats,we still enjoy watching the show.The movie can be called a love story and also a comedy.So its not that mushy-mushy type,you see."Kak dia hot ehk??"After the movie,i met yunos and his friends.Before he went Double O.Kakak also meet up her friend.At last i get to meet zam,real life cause i always saw him in JON handphone and without fail i will always ask Jon who he is!!cause Jon hp is flooded with his pictures and he look like Alif Aziz.Not forgetting,nice meeting you zana=)Although we don't talk that much or should i say i dont know how to start a conversation with someone.I abit shy ah.hah.

Date

2009-04-30T13:48:00.004+08:00

i have a movie date with my SISITAAAAAAA!!!who wants to join???

errrmmmm....CANNOTTT!!!!hahaha....sorry lah i need to distress abit after writing 4 social studies essays,1 letter writing and compo!i can feel my brain cells and nerves dieing ;due to all the memorisation which is needed for social studies.

"Jangan tegur" here i come!

komal i miss you!

kris i miss the days you would update me about the bus whereabouts!

FYI i always miss many bus lah!

RANDOMNESS

2009-04-30T00:10:00.004+08:00

FARK OFF IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME.I AIN'T NEED ANY PRETENDERS!

THOSE LADIES MAKE ME KNOW WHAT TRUE FRIENDSHIP IS!
THEY STICK THRU ME ALL THIS WHILE AND YES I LOVE THEM ALOT!
HASANAH MAYBE A MOOD SWINGISH GIRL BUT AT THE SAME TIME SHE COULD BE A MOTHER TO THE BOTH OF US WHICH IS SAMMY AND I.SHE SCOLDED US WHEN WE MOVED OUR ATTENTION TO SOMETHING IRRELEVANT ESPECIALLY WHEN WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE LISTENING TO OUR TEACHERS!
SAME GOES TO SAMANTHA!I LOVE YOU LAH.EVEN YOU MAY BE SUCH A BITCH AT TIMES I STILL LOVE YOU!

they were the ones who always stood By me when i need them

they were the ones who always came late for class with me

they were the ones who will smuggle in food and eat in class like nobody buisness WITH ME!

love you bitches..

EHK SARA!AKU TAK LUPA KAU LAH!

I LOB YOU LAH SARA IMIN!=)

YUNOS!

2009-04-26T11:53:00.004+08:00

i miss you lah B!!!how?You go rewang then cannot meet me;(
okay actually its partially my fault lah...

i miss him ALOT !!!

OH WELL,GUYS I WILL BE GONE FOR A FEW WEEKS.SO NO UPDATING BUT I WILL UPLOAD THE PHOTOS WHEN I GET THE PHOTOS IN MY HAND,,,

MID YEAR EVERYBODY!LETS STUDY!=((

"SMOKEY"

2009-04-25T20:09:00.009+08:00

BIRTHDAY GIRL!

Today was a "BOMB!"hahaha...oh well we manage to make hasanah shock which is a surprise.Of course in every plan there must be a conflict but...we managed to overcome it!So my day was well spent with my gorgeuos girlfriends!!!!Omg, hasanah cried.I'm so sorry babe but if we never make you cry,there wont be any surprise right darl?Phew,thank god everything went well.At first there were only hasanah,sam,yana and me,hours later,Peáh and raihan joined!So there were two couples.Unfortunately,baby and marc can't make it .So when we have a group photo,i and sam became THE couple for THE day!hahaha....There's more photo coming up.So sam faster!!=)

To HASANAH BABE;

i wish you a blissful 17 years old birthday.I may not be the best girlfriends but i hope that you enjoyed what we had done for you!Its been 5 years babe and i will make sure that THE NUMBER will keep on increasing!Love you GORGEOUS!

Reunion

2009-04-25T07:47:00.002+08:00

my long-lost friends!
i will link you guys up soon.
my computer is being a f***ker now a days!
i'm so happy!i miss you guys.
its been 5 years guys!
Meet up soon lovelies!

catcha!

2009-04-24T20:33:00.002+08:00

Surprisingly,baby allow me to go shesha.This is so a last minute plan.I dont know whether it will work out or not.I and sam bake a cakë for h's birthday..I have to melt the choclates and all..First thing in the morning, i have to rush to school and be CHEF for the day.Currently,talking to somebody at tagged.hah.okay back to the plan,i will rush home and meet H and sam then yana.Unfortunately,sara can't make it.

shesha-ing!!!!!!!

let's get it smokey!

heh.

If you asked me whether i forget about what had happened yesterday.

You are definitely wrong,cause i ;MAREA wont forget.

Say sorry as many times as you want but deep inside i'm hurt.

by your action,all the words that came out from your mouth.

very hurt.

nevertheless my love for you is still strong

that's what i hate being in love with you.

no matter what you do or say.i will still love you.

call me stupid.indeed i am.

one more chance baby!=)

Dont make the same mistake.

eja cute lah awak!

Mood swing

2009-04-21T16:15:00.006+08:00

today was shitty.
i feel very-very shitty.
i am not in the mood to talk.
i try to laugh and joke abt some stuff despite the irritating stomach cramp.
But deep inside i feel so fuck up!
i feel dissapointed.I feel useless.I feel stupid.
Maybe its just temporary.I started the day quite well,when suddenly i feel lonely.very-very lonely.
I turned red.frustrated.
I need time to cool down guys.when i am ready i will tell you guys.
What i am telling you guys will make you guys think likewise.
Time will tell. Or maybe i just wont tell anything.
Thank you so much naia(my morning walking partner),iggy=)(thanks iggy for sitting beside me),bryan(for not disturbing me) and suria(the shocking news!) your presence is more than enough guys.

not forgetting sara imin!thank you so much for spending time with me eating choclate and listen to me whining!!!!

**i love you gerls tho.

Curiosity.

2009-04-19T22:03:00.003+08:00

I didn't know that baby is soo kpo...
He look sooo funny when he is soo kpo!!!We took bus from interchange and after a few stops hasanah and raihan board the bus.They sit behind us.So we continue doing our own stuff.Hasanah look weird so i keep on looking at the back sit.I am not being kpo kay,i am just checking whether my girlfriend is doing fine.
Me & him:
Him:you kpo sak!(i stop looking)
Me:what kpo!my best friend okay!
Him:-(he continue eating his fries)
Me:(lookIng out the window,turn to him&caught him red handed looking at them!)YOU LAGE KPO EHK!
Him:I kpo because that girl my gf bestfriend!
Me:No link lah!ohh!!you look can then i cannot?
(then we laugh!!)
He may be the most cruel person on earth but at the same time he can be super nicee...
His my personal clown.

Holla.

2009-04-18T08:54:00.005+08:00

Today i will not go out.I got plans but i think i shall spent time with mama & papa instead.

In a week,saturday is the only day that i could spent time with them.For the past few weeks,i've been going out with yunos & my friends.So walla,i decided to be a good girl and spent time with mama &papa today.

yesterday was well spent,except for the fact that everybody says "marea stop talking!".Since yesterday Cikgu siti said there is no mock exam,i'm soo delighted abt the news.heh.imagine when everybody went home early on every friday and you are still sitting in the school library doing tests.sad life huh?=(but its okay its all sacrfices.Then,I and sam decided to go sara's house to see molly!molly have grown a little bigger people.Then karlid cooked for us!!Nice okay he cooked especially the CHICKEN GRILL.yummy!!!

when i wAS eating i keep on coughing and karlid straight away went to his refrigerator and took cough syrup for me and he also comes with plain water!How sweet he is!

i don't know when will i regain my voice back.

By right i should be geting my voice back after eating the doc's medicine.

By left after eating it my voice only gets worse!

I've stop smoking already,so people stop saying to me

"smoke somemore!smoke somemore!"
Yunos will be _________(fill in the blanks yourself) if i smoke again.

Blessed!

2009-04-17T08:44:00.002+08:00

happy birthday mr yap!!!!!!!!!!!

Rockstar!

2009-04-16T21:22:00.003+08:00

talk to me and i will answer you back with my cool husky voice!
i LoIkE!But still it hurts man..

Today has been an ass
School was okay.
I suck.
he suck.
so both of us suck.
I cant help it but to feel dissapointed.
ass.

happy 6 month anniversary yunos!

true?

2009-04-15T18:23:00.004+08:00

We don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood i'm in. LET US PAY FOR YOU! DON'T 'FEEL BAD' We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you.'

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the
need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are. Honestly, I think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. Or my t-shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hot Morris
Chesnutt, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'. I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

On the other hand I'm not saying I wouldn't like it either. Girls: I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE.> DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT Someone who will honour your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
Someone who will love you, no matters how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'I love you' ..........AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
*****Give the nice guys a chance*****
Holding Hands-
Girls : If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times. Guys: Grab it if it happens more than once.
Cuddling- Girls : When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold. Guys : Automatically move closer to her.
Movies-Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.
Loving each other- Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... And mean it.
Laying below the stars- Girls : When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

oh gosh i love this.
iggy dudley, thank you!

Feverish

2009-04-14T13:54:00.005+08:00

I am having fever and i just came back from polyclinic.

i spent almost 4 hours at the poly.
I can hardly even think & walk properly.
Yunos scolded me for going poly alone.

Lastly,i am craving for choclate!The one which have cornflakes in it!

Text kakak to buy for me choclate.Hope she buy for me choclate.
Yunos will kill me if he finds out that i am eating choclate when i 'm sick.

he called me,to check on me and

I just text him saying that i am craving for choclate.

He immediately call me after i sent him the msg.

saying "Dont ever think abt having a choclate".

Okay i am very lazy to type any longer and i am stil craving for choclate=(

My babies!

2009-04-13T20:36:00.002+08:00

Five years and still counting baby!I love you dudies alot!

madness!

2009-04-11T20:30:00.010+08:00

Highlight for today:

Today yunos is so super duper hyper.I don know why!He is very irritating,i repeat he is VERY irritating.

But still i love it when he go huha!Guess what he did?He took all the flyers at the interchange and handed it to me.& he keep on laughing like one retard boy!

Seriously he is so retarded today.I took some idiotic photos of him but he delete it!itchy hand!Then,we went burger king & after we finish eating we walk to starbucks and wow!KAKAK n ABG HUS exit century square entrance,such a big coincidence man.hah.small world ehk!Then;

We watched FAST & FURIOUS 4!!one thumb up only.i swear that girl is damn hot.

p/s:i love you yunos;my retard boy!

heartbeats

2009-04-11T09:58:00.006+08:00

i miss those times when we go lepak together"lepaking".

i miss those times when we sit at the library making stupid videos to kill time.

i miss those time when we will say to each other,"Omg what the hell is mdm zaibon doing?"

i miss those times when we cry,providing each other a shoulder to lean on.

i miss those time when we walk to interchange and started shouting at each other and running for our bus.

i miss those wet kisses on the cheecks.

i miss those times, i really miss those times.

those were the ones who made me realized how beautiful friendship is.

those were the ones who made me realized that everybody is not perfect.

everybody have flaws rite kris?

i miss you girls alot;eventho we had gone seperates ways we still do love each other.

kris && komal i miss you alot!Hasanah,sara & sam i really appreciate that you guys are still by my side.

my love for them is not an ordinary love.

we shall save lots of ching-ching and fly to america!

2009-04-10T11:33:00.002+08:00

look at my new blog layout!

so clean,neat & white.

SIMPLE!

i feel soo HOOLLLLYYYY!!!!

hahaha.

Throbbing.

2009-04-10T09:25:00.007+08:00

omggg!!yesterday,had my nafa..it was okay lah=)
i didn't know that dee and suria is very good at many of the station.Let me tell you,they are small physically but very-very strong,okay.Amazed lah can!
And due to nafa test, my whole body is aching like nobody buisness!!!help me...
well-well,i want to go tamp1 please. not fair!yunos went there first!
He ahh!Two days straight go 'berdansa'.hahaha..the insecure feeling is there.but as long as he knows whats right AND wrong it won't bother me that much.cause i believe that if we are fated to be together,nothing can ever seperate us.So we are talking abt "TRUST"baybeh!I dont want to control his life,i dont see the need too.Obviously certain things i will need to interfere.&&I can't wait for o'level to end!
Once it's over:
1) tell mama n papa abt yunos.(his been very patient!few more months baby)
2)highlight or colour my hair.Both also can.
3)get a freakin job to save up for my car licence.
4)Last of all ENJOY AH!

Last night,Abg and jonie came my house.I didn't notice.I was sleeping soundly.Jon stupid trick !
jon:Hi marea ada?
marea:(being a gundo)yes speaking!saper ne?
jon:HAFIZLAH!tak kenal?(he laughed)
(i paused & keep thinking!which hafiz?)
marea:Pantat siak kau jon!!!!!!

**boy you know that i am attached.end of conversation.
your words seems to be expecting something.

ASSSSSS!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-08T18:28:00.000+08:00

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DO IT AND I CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THINK AGAIN!!!!!!!
WE'LL SEE ABOUT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUU SUUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE YOU AT THIS VERY MOMENT.
SO FARKKK OFFFF!!!!!
SELF-CENTRED ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!
TIRED OF GIVING IN TO YOU GETTTT MEEE!!!!
GTH!

Pain.

2009-04-06T19:15:00.001+08:00

I miss those madness during our class chalet last year!

Im down with diarea(is that how you spell it?(i don know!)
After doing the mock exam,i rushed to the toilet.
ONLY GODD KNOWS HOW MUCH PAIN I FELT!!!
I feel like vomitting at the same time.Moments later,I feel giddy.
I called papa to fetch me from school.I seriously cant bear with the pain any longer.
I thought papa will take his time to reached my school,so i took my own sweet time(or should i say a suffering moment).As i am walking like as if i am half-dead"beep-beep"papa alert me with his irritating horn.wow that was fast.ZOOM home then.

You know what?
The whole class decided to make a CLASS SOCK!!!!
When i get to know this i was like"huh?You must be joking rite!"
No it was not a joke,told you that my class has alot of weird people and weird ideas.
But i love the weirdness!And making a class sock is UNIQUE RITE?
That's the purpose,we like to be different from the others.
Have i told you that i love my class....=)
June holidays!we are having chalet,we planned as if we had finished our O level's.
hahaha...I called papa B!He just stared at me as if i am from MARS!(Hemust be thinking that the food poisoning had gone up and eat up my brain cells)
SORRY LAH PAPA.hahaha=)
That's all for today.
**b i want to go chalet please!=(**

perplexed

2009-04-05T09:50:00.000+08:00

I woke up in the morning,i dragged myself out from bed and strolled in to mama & papa room.
Rubbed my eyes which is half open,instead of seeing my parents,i saw bibik tidying up the bed.Oh my i really feel like going to bed again.But I have physics test which i need to study and i need to complete 3 compo which is due tomorow and definitely i am screwed.What the hell,mr loh will not be in school what!
That reminds me last night,before going to lala land,i lay on the bed thinking about what had happened,i started to vibrate !hahaha....zahar-zahar!
mr loh was talking about some documentary show which is on OKTO!
Then this zahar interupt,i know-i know it is showed on OKAY-TO rite?
Diyana who sitS opposite him said okto lah,what okay-to!
Trying hard to ignore zahar which i can't.Turned my whole body around to look at his blur face or should i say expressionless face and just keep on laughing!confident rite!hahaha=)he made my day!He will always do.
**How i wish-how i wish if i could turn back the time.

Pointless

2009-04-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

JONNIE!!I MISS YOU LAH!!!

thanks for not being there
thanks for not sending me
thanks for the misunderstanding
thanks for ignoring me
thanks for being angry.
i apologize and you ignored!
so overall,thank you soo much!
reammends to the communities!
godmama KOMEY! IF KRISSEY IS HERE SHE WILL LOVE MOLLY!

KRIS WANT TO JOIN?
anybody else interested please sent your resuming!
hahaha...macam faham!

**please leave me a tag if you are reading my blog!At the very least i know someones reading my blog!I would appreciate it alot!THANK YOU.with love;
marea

ADOPTION

2009-04-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

MAREA HERTOGH & GABRIELLA:
Him:Marea hertogh!
Me:Yes gabriella!
Him:You want to adopt a kitten?Very cute you know!
Me:I already got a cat!
Him:How old is your cat?
me:7...Why?
Him:Very old already lah...Go adopt this kitten lah..
Me:don waNT!
Him:YOUr cat need a companion lah hertogh!Cause it is getting old!
Me:NOOOO!& stop cursing my cat!
Him:the kitten very cute you know!
Me:i know!ERRMM!!go ask hasanah...
Him:number?
Me:..........
Him:no answer!
Him:somemore got who?
Me:okay i know saralah!
Him:okay taken!!!!

hahahaha...how dare he say baby is dying & insist ...okay the kitten name is MOLLY!!!and meet the GODMAMA'S COMMUNITY!Introducing:
godmama RARA
godmama SAM
godmama MAREA
godmama YANA
godmama AMOK!

Wedding!

2009-03-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

Hearul irfan thank you many-many..

btw, i love your camera!!!!!!!!

Break down

2009-03-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

My body is giving up with all the studies & activities;

Everybody says i am a strong girl but i doubt soo..

I am on the verge of giving up.

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"Will you leave me?"

It had never came across my mind;never at once.

There were once, we had a huge fight saying to each other goodbye but you & i know we can't bear to do that.

askin you to move on & insisted that you find a new girl.

We managed to get hold of the situation.

&No matter how hard we try to joke abt the the fight we had,deep down we know what had happened!I just hope history wont repeat itself.

note this:i love you no matter what!

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why the hell am i soo emo??

KRISTINA ELIZABETH T SANTOS, KOMALPREET KAUR;

I MISS YOU BABEYS ALOOOTTTT!!!!!!!!

HECTIC

2009-03-30T15:52:00.000+08:00

**first thing i step in th room i saw this**irritating or what!

rara i love you!!

ayish-he asks alot of questions!

the class photos which i managed to get from samu!

omg!!!i am sooo relieved that everything went well..kak nurrr good job!!!.hahaha..Sunday after the performance i and hasanah rush for our tuition,imagine going to tuition with all the make-up still stuck on my face except for the glittering stuff!!But i love my hair!!After tuition,met yunos!yunos was like "B everytime meet me do your hair and make-up like this can?"I turn at him and said "don want lah difficult you know if you want me to tie like this!"and smiled.That mamat was with adam and adam friends before meeting me..yeahh..Decided to walk around tm and saw adam and his friends.Then after that we went to yunos mum shop and his mum asked me to join for bowling.btw,thanks ehk cik besok school lah anyway i am soo penat..i was so nervous that i replied the wrong things.

conversation me and his mum &yunos:
his mum:die ikot kita main bowling?

yunos:entah die!(look at me)

me:tak lah cik besok KERJA !(i look at yunos then i was like)Ehk bukan sekolah!

yunos:ngok ah nak step mane nyer besar je!(pantat nyer B)=)

I don know whats wrong with me....but seriously i freak out...nervous lah seh...luckily his mum smiled!!kental i know!don remind me....

hahaha....okay i have been trying to get the photos out from my phone but cannot!

hearul!faster sent me the photos k!!!!and attention people:his camera issssssss veeeerrrrrryy goooooooddd!!!!

2009-03-28T20:31:00.000+08:00

OMG!!one down and one more to go baybeh...
Today was sooooooooooooooo fffffffaaaaaaaaaaaarrkkkiiiiiinnnnngggg funnnnn!!!The whole class were all so busy with their own make-up and roles..and i am so worn out rite now,my whole body is aching rite now!oh my some of the people reaction was so funny..Some of them never even sees usss but when we shout they shout or worse shout for no reason!like what the hell rite?hahaha....thank god everythings goes well as what we planned...of course we definitely have some misunderstanding among the ghost-es..But everything goes well and i heard that there was 1 boy that enter the haunted mansion for 5 to 6 times and imagine how much he spent??i shall grab the photos from somebody aite...but i managed to snap some photos...enjoy... I meet yunos today,i miss him lah deyy!!!

StRiCtLy NoT fOr ThE wEaK-hEaRtEd PeOpLe!!!!!!!!

Hantu kum-kum
In the the making of POCONG!!

HaNtU vAmPiRe!

I dOn kNOw WHt He Is!

MaK DuKuN

Ju-On

MaKe Up In PrOgResS!

CoNgKaK GeRl.

HaNtu KhaI,HaNtu MaRea,pAk dUkuN

PaK DuKun(he wears make-up himself ok!)

there was more ghost but i am busy with all the preparation!

2009-03-27T19:15:00.001+08:00

SnEaK pREvIew oF thE hAunTed mAnSioN!=)

zaharuddin bin sahbri(his a blur king!)

I & sofie

abg khai=future artist

pardon my pathetic face!

drifted.

2009-03-27T07:59:00.001+08:00

holla people,

im suppose to be in school right now to do some preparation for the haunted mansion.Naia is so gonna kill me for being this late..=)but atleast i come right?I am soo excited for the carnival..everybody is talking about the huanted house huh?how amzing are we that we managed to make people curious??hahaha....naia has been working her ass off man!chill lah babe,everythings gonna be alright.See i told you that the whole class like to do last minute work,but our last minute work,works okay!hahaha....i love 5 N2 they rox...our class has alot of weird people..i swear!

Today PE was AWESOME!!we played soccer or shall i say screaming section,all of us are soo kental when it comes too soccer,as usual laugh here and there and people getting injured!!!!hahaha...(it reminds me of hasanah kicking the ball super confident and superblyhard) and it hit straight AT suria face!!&&not forgetting a girl who is so confident whose name is SAMANTHA.)Lets talk about it,the ball was kickED out and someone pass her the ball and then don know what she do to the ball,the BALL(which is covered wth grass) hit her MOUTH!!!!!hhahaha...she turn ard and with her ah lian face says""chi-bye lah!!!!"Actually,It was her fault.

and for me instead of going to her asking her whether she's alright,i just dropped onto the grass(which is wet) and start laughing my ass off!!!Kecho or what!!!

time check 2.30 and i am suppose to be in school at 2.00

i think i should really rush and get ready for school ...then later I need to go for dance....

AIYOYO-THAMBI!!(yunos favourite word)i miss him!!!i shall take alot of pictures..This few days i will be working my ass off man with all my carnival and dance and sara brother big day(us performing)..Sometimes i pity yunos,its as if i i am not doing my duty as his gelrfren,i am busy with schools okay; sorry k b..BUTTTTTTTTTTTT the most important is tht he knows I LOVE HIM MAHHH!!!!he understands me.

chiaoo.....will upload photos kayss...

I hate this feeling...i just hate it...

you promised but those were just empty promises..

i wish you knew about it, howi really wish...

i am sick and tired of getting to know things from other people..

the word sorry doesnt cure the heart wrenching that you had caused;

constantly you keep on apologizing & i keep on forgiving you

what can i say my love for you is to strong...

i put up with all this shyte long enough & i dont even know when can i stop all this..