Cold

I miss him alot yes i do.
People must be saying "get over it lah"
I am not over it.It isn't that easy people.
No matter how many guys i talk too,You are still in my freakin mind.
Same goes to you right?I don't know whether you're telling me the truth.
I really don't know.I really don't!
I cant make up my mind.
It wasn't easy to meet you up and acted as if nothing had happen.
We talked things out,well we tried to!But both of us ended up being angry at each other.
I was soo-soo angry,sad &dissapointed that i just broke down.
Never thought i would do that right?
like i say,I'm just a normal girl who fall in & fall out of love.
Imagine for the past six month+ i never ever cried infront of you and when i did you freak out,lost and felt scared.I was holding back my tears for too long boy that i just blow up at that very moment and cried.Lucky for me i never saw your face,i bet its funny.He panicked and pass me tissue,well that's my tissue actually.At the tone of your voice you never expected me to cry right?think what i super girl? I never knew that i will feel so much better after crying it all out after holding it back quite long after we broke off.Crying on your shoulder gives me the wamth that i need.For all this while i am showing everybody that i am coping well when the fact is i'm not,i'm devastated.People are convinced that i am alright even he is.

I dont make this decision,
I was force to be in this situation.
If i don't do this will you ever wake up?