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Hello world,
i just got back home.Yunos sent me home and i made him carry my shoe bag!.School was effing tiring and i really-rreally need to rest!Went gym with hasanah baby today and sammy baby cant make it due to ehem!(=
Its been so long since i go to the gym to shake that fatty away thats in me.Yes i am losing weight!YESSA!!last time i was fat alright now i can fit in all the clothes in the wardrobe without any fats coming out like they used too!YAHOOOO!After we went gym yunos met me up and sent me home!so yeah that's about it.I was hyper,in fact very hyper that he freak out.He walked away from me okay!BAd siA hE!Then he walked towards me and hold my hand and asked"you okay tak?"hahaha.Kental!You know the feeling of being hyper and restless at the same time that when you mixes it together and it turn out to be like a rojak?Ya-ya thats what i'm feeling!I was dragging my foot like nobody buisness that yunos need to swing the shoebag towards my direction and it hurt my thigh!pain lah can!So thats about it!
Rememeber the previous post that i say i wont msg him?hahaha...i did it lah people!
He msg me!!!We are hanging.;/Anybody have a rope to save us??

I don't care mood!

Well,this few days i have been such a pain in the ass for *****.I made him angry for three,four days straight?i felt a sense of satisfacton when i made him angry!i dont kno why.Number one cause i want to find out and convinced myself that he changed for the better,must be wondering right,why i'm doing all this?I still do love him.He promised me that he will change and once he change for the better,we will talk about it.BUTT,I regret clearing up things with you,maybe if i leave you hanging like you used too,it will be soooooooo much better!=)
Last few days,i've been thinking to much in fact way too much.Everyy night you will keep on lingering in my mind.My cheeks,blanket and pillow have been my witness for my weaknesses.Now i've made my decision.
1)i wont msg you anymore,if you dont i dont care
2)what you want to do just go ahead i dont care
3)Who you go with to the club i dont care
4)where do you want to go i dont care
5)who do you want to go hugging in the club i DONT FARKING CARE!!!!
Speaking about hugging!arggghhh!!
This is what i think,so what if i contact with 3 or 4 guys atleast i dont go around hugging people when i am high or drunk,orr whatever you called it!Yes the girl,came to you but somehow or rather it takes two hands to clap remember?
till then.
Now i need someone to hug(really badly)

Cik noi get well soon kays!!!!
jon type this on my wallpaper:

evErYdaY iS a NeW dAy!So DoN't Hope That EverYThinG Will B oUhkayS!

Ass!I was expecting something postive in life that will motivate me.

one more thin he just left me speechless when we talk about transportation!

Perempuan hidup memang menumpang per!!!

bastard sia jon.

Thank you jonie for listening to me when we're in the car!Really appreciate it alot.

Altho your advise really like one toot.

i'm still thanking you!atleast you are listening to me.

Boredom kills.

Currently i am at mama's new shop and i swear i'm dying of boredom.We'll be back around 2 and i'l go out!hahahaha....
Jonnie,kakak and me maybe some of jonnie friend(bom-bom ehk?)..i wanted to ask abg along but jon say abg busy!I wonder whats his busy about??nevermind-nevermind..
Really hope you can make it mister!=))
kick ball-kick ball!~forever sia you!
sheesha maybe???
i want to go out!!!!stresss lahh can????
School have been pressurizing this few days and i dont like it!=(
teacher have been naggy and bla-bla-bla!

Spammers

first of all,I love you!!=D
i got a spamm by somebody maybe he/she?shall call "it" a "SHEMALE"

like i told you guys before!

"if you don't like me fark off!"


"daniel4e6"=dude get a life!!Sooooooo Childish!Haiyo!!
5N's rocksss!i don't blame this"shemale"!We tend to get alot of enemies and people having grudges againts us!I don't know why!so yeah!hahahaha.....I dont get affected at ALL!!BOOOOO!!! kakak=nevermind kakak dont waste time i think this shemale havent matured lah.. so yeah!


ADAM LAMBERT YOU ARE HOTTTT!!!!

baby,how i wish

To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes....
.To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.


baby those were the things that you had done for me & how i really wish that you could do more than this.But baby i am contented enough that you have been there for me and teach me the meaning of love;love.It aint tht easy baby.

happy?

Convincing enough that i'm happy?

Today i enjoyed being in school despite of the long braggy hours.

What can i say all of us are so happy.We joked,we talked,we laughed again and we joked again.

Hasanah,sam,bryan and I sat around the table and draw up a Future plan for our future(mind map)-free period.I had a very hard time convincing sam and bryan about me being a nurse.hahahaha....Asss lah bryan and for sam as usual argue and argue!hahaha...Nevertheless i still love them!Me and hasanah cant stop laughing about________.Nevrmind,i love you babe.

Hasanah text me up,thanking me for brighting up her day with all the laughters and stupid jokes! and .........Well she text me quite long and i forgot some of the parts.(awwwwwww!Its my pleasure darling,like i say i love to make you guys laugh!Atleast it help me to get my mind off that thing.)now im confuse!what are we?

Cold

I miss him alot yes i do.
People must be saying "get over it lah"
I am not over it.It isn't that easy people.
No matter how many guys i talk too,You are still in my freakin mind.
Same goes to you right?I don't know whether you're telling me the truth.
I really don't know.I really don't!
I cant make up my mind.
It wasn't easy to meet you up and acted as if nothing had happen.
We talked things out,well we tried to!But both of us ended up being angry at each other.
I was soo-soo angry,sad &dissapointed that i just broke down.
Never thought i would do that right?
like i say,I'm just a normal girl who fall in & fall out of love.
Imagine for the past six month+ i never ever cried infront of you and when i did you freak out,lost and felt scared.I was holding back my tears for too long boy that i just blow up at that very moment and cried.Lucky for me i never saw your face,i bet its funny.He panicked and pass me tissue,well that's my tissue actually.At the tone of your voice you never expected me to cry right?think what i super girl? I never knew that i will feel so much better after crying it all out after holding it back quite long after we broke off.Crying on your shoulder gives me the wamth that i need.For all this while i am showing everybody that i am coping well when the fact is i'm not,i'm devastated.People are convinced that i am alright even he is.

I dont make this decision,
I was force to be in this situation.
If i don't do this will you ever wake up?

told you I LOVE THEM;

tht's my papa boy!(guess who)

cheeky danny!

hearul said:"dont want ah like gay!"

i dont like iggy cause he run very fast!

look-look my hair quite long rite? abit rite!

mE & iggy was the only one aware of the camera!

Home sweet home for me & samu!

I want a gorgeous 3/4 skirt with designs on it!

&&

a gold watch!!

mama adeq nak!!!Birthday blh??

jonnie.

really not in a good mood rite now!!!
i'm pissed with everybody!!!like now??
JOn why are you working???
i badly need you,i want to go out!!
I want to tell you what he say all that stuff!!
i don't like this!

i need a puff now! oh my my addiction is coming back!fark my promise to him!=(


seriously whats your will ah boy????

i love them.

MaRkInG dAy

Today was fun!!hahahaha....there's plenty of photos,wait till i grab it frm hearul,wei kang and dee!You know what there's this indian navy!come let me tell you the whole story!

Once upon a time,three ladies is sitting at the mat while ALL the boys went to play volleyball.Then this two navy indian guys:

Him:"Can i take pic with you guys"

Sam:no!you want me to take pic of the tree? (wtf sam)

Him:its okay if cannot i just want to take with her!

(pointing at me !)
me:No-no-no!!
Him:why-why-why??

(wahhh i feel like punching his face!imitate my voice!)
Me:later my BOYFRIEND SCOLD! (liar sia marea)

Him:i will talk with your boyfriend!i want to make my girlfriend jealous so you can make yours jealous too!

(errr,hello i got taste okay!)

Me:Errr i got to go!

Him:Thanks for being so rude! (wahhhh manners!!!whose the rude one here!)

I swear they freak me out!I was perspiring lah;cold sweat!Then the boys came back!We told them what happen?they say"what if ang moh ask you!confirm want right!"

thats different thing lah k!

belongs to weikang!I want!!!!

See sam face like tourist from korea!

REuby shave until like this!

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today im not in school cause its marking day!!!
yahoo!!!so the whole class planned to go sentosa!
i ssooooo cant wait for that...n1 and n2!i bet its gonna be a long day for me& definitely funnnn!
The boys called me up and ask to bring MARBLE!!&why on earth do they need that?
chiaoo...will upload photos!
i heard HEARUL is bringing his camera along!!
hearul camera=camwhore PEOPLE!!!
hahaha....Im going with the fun bunch of people.Confirm KECOHS!!

Shocked

holla people,
okay i just discovered some news!Three word SHOCK LAH CAN???
i dont know how to react..i feel so dumb right now?I just dont want to take the risk of losing a friendship because of a guy.To me that's so LOWWW class to fight over guys!Actually,guys are jerks as they feel very proud when girls pulling each other hair for him.PUHLEESEE!hahaha..There are girls like that okay,its as if theres no more guys in the world that you need to fight for that guy and worse!Some of them like to snatch other people's boyfriend!for what??

Okay world,i am coping well right now!I feel soooo happy.
Do you feel the FREEDOM people???
I DO!!!hahahaha.....
happy lah deyyy!
Over the moon=))
i have freedom,i have good mood,i have great friends;Yunos is my friend people!
I DONT NEED A MAN!(for now only)hahaha.

My month;June

pardon my face!

All the tired face after the celebration;Only for me.i have a long day okay?

I love june holiday!!!Indeed it's my special month.
I was bornt on that month.Guess what people ?i can jollywell forget abt having a celebration cause i have block-booking for 2 solid weeks.Irritating.All the BASI PIC.

Wish list:
I want a big birthday bash.
I want my loved ones to be with me.
I want all my friends to be there,be it my primary or secondary.
I want alot-alot of presents.
I want good o'level results.
& BIG cake??
can?

I'm the next door subway women.right sammy?

Taken

today was urber boring.woke up by mama nagging.Papa and mama went JP and for me stay at home,THE WHOLE DAY!If i were still with yunos,gurantee i will be out,If lah!Okay so yesterday the whole family went tekka to eat for mama's day and a small farewell for bibik.Before tuition went to mummy's house!Tha keciq's were all there,Jon raihan,Abg MARC USAMAH,mummy and most importantly,mak &abah.After tuition papa pick me up and i can't meet somebody.Booo!!Then get ready again,BON VOYAGE to bibik.dada.

Certainly i've moved on and showing everybody a brave front.
noor,you are very sweet!!thank you!
*hasanah i need you badly,my gf!

I wonder if you hate me for doing this to you?

Happy mama's day

I love you even tho you can be very naggy!

You advise me alot mama.Even though you always say that you are tired and all that,i know you still care for me.You always share with me problems when we are both alone at home.Sometimes what you say really amazad me.Gosh i love you mama.You're a strong women who still have a will to smile and help people in need even tho you yourself is in diff.Especially,abt this sensitive issue _____.

Love you!

It doesn't matter what gift you give your mum on that day.

It's abt how you appreciate your mum in your daily life.

There's no use showing your gratitude only on Mother's day itself cause she only feel special for only one day.

What i'm trying to say is appreciate her and make her feel special everyday.

Mama we hardly have a good talk,but when we had a great talk you will just left me speechless.

i love you mama.

Undeniable

I wont deny that i miss you,
i wont deny that i still love you,
i wont deny that i cant get over you for only a few days.

i'm just a normal human being,who is a girl,
Who is born to love and fall out of love.
The relationship that we build up for 6 plus months will not just dissapear from my mind.
I've said i moved on but deep inside i am struggling.
Nevertheless,i am still moving on.If not now,when?

Initially,todays plan was to get some stuff for mama.But kakak who wont stop being a lazy bumm refuses to go anywhere after she changed on her pyjamas.so yeahh,maybe we just belanja mama tomorrow k?
For the past two days,I spent time with my families.hah.Its been so long.Its been so long.When you look at my parents,at one point they are arguing about a tiny weeny matter,and at the next moment they laugh!weird enough huh?I myself dont understand.

Boy everywhere i go just remind me off you
It ain't that easy.
i sound as if i dont care when you text me or called me!but omg it just so hard.
like i say i wont turn back.
Indeed i am stubborn.Thats me..

I am bloghopping and i am smiling away and amzed that all my primary achool friends have really changed!When i say changed i really mean REALLY CHANGED~Miss them.Childish moments lah.

Single ladies.

naia sayang!

First it was hasanah
second sam then
its me..
i think we had been cursed or something..
fuckk them lah...

Anyway the girls are very sweet.
We spent quality time with each other.
Since we finished our poa paper eaRLy we had 4 solid hours to waste.
So all these single ladies go to pasir ris park and talk about life and about our exes talking about what actually happen and in future when we work all that.
well i love them alot.
chiao.
naia baby thank you soo much!

GF we will get thru this together!We just dont be lesbian.

anyways i miss those fellows up here^-----^(zayna your face naughty nyer!)

Dead and gone

You made me this way.
Every fairytale doesnt end with a happy ending.
thanks yunos for everything.You made it happen yunos.Not me!
**no turning back anymore!
i promise!
Move on and not gonna turn back like i used too.
i wonder why?
why i fall for you instead of others?
why wont you understand me like the others?
why cant you be patient with me?
why cant you be nice to me when i have a very bad day??
why?just tell me why?

its not that i am saying you are very cruel to me and you never gave me love..
but at times when i badly need you.
you just aren't by my side.
blame it on me cause i never had time for you rite!.
Thats what our last conversation you talk about right??
"have we?have we?"
thats the question you keep on shooting at me.
what i feel is that,you never understands me and the most important thing you never think about my feelings.Your excuse will be that you are angry and you cant control yourself.


i put away my ego aside and call you up expecting for a friendship to build up
instead of a frienship you gave me attitude.
grudges!just because i broke off with you?is that it?
you wont know that things may work out right if we still be friends?
you just wont know.
BUT its okay yunos.Forget that i called and the friendship offer.
when you cut off the line today,it just shows you are not interested.
i get you!
BEST OF LUCK in life for you!!!

Mattt Re{p}!

he look like mat rep in this photo!^____^

Oh well, i just got back from school.

chatting with Noor and jonnie!

Jonnie kecoh sia..asking me when am i going to meet him?

cause its been months since i last saw him that means its been months i never go to mummy house!

Cuzzy dah majuuu per!He changed.But his still irritating!

later i meet you lah k?When exam finish.

You save money many-many cause you want to treat me kan?

heh.

chiao!

Dizzy spell

iritating as My face can be just like the headache!

my head is spinning like a CYCLONE!
i know cyclone have no link to the world.

but i dont give a damn.
I've yet to study for my POA.Accounts seh marea.

Which i hate it.HATE lah can?

Its freakin diff people,believe me.

I feel like vommitting and i am telling you guys i am not pregnant.

hah.

cause alot of people have this impression like this.

me:headache lah i want to vommit
somebody:aiyoo!!!whose child?
irritating right!Dont even do anything how to have baby?
Think what i Mother Mary ah?
maybe i have been starving myself lately,that's one of the highest possibilities for having this dizzy spell!

Baby;

I know you are angry about what had happen.
Do you think i want that to happen?
Yes i know he is not suppose to act that way but you should understand the situation.
Do you think i am not angry about what had happen?
Stop talking about what had happen,but you insist on talking about it.
Do you think i dont feel hurt?


dwell about it baby,just a little and its more than enough to make me happy.
The pain that you are feeling is double the pain that i had to face.

Till then.


kristina just called me from america!!!!!!!!
how i wish you were like other guys who remembers my paper and sent just a simple text to wish me luck.
how i wish you were just like the other guys who will be ther for me.
how i wish you were like the other guys who will just smile at me and let me do what i want.
how i wish you were like the others who remembers our anniversary.
how i wish you could think before you say anything.

darlings!!!!!!!!!
i miss you girls alot and no matter what,i repeat no matter what we will still be the girlfriends like we used to be last time.I can assure you that nothing had change and WILL change you see..
so komal baby,dont worry and faster make a schedule and put us in your schedule.You are busy with shatec right babe?For kristina i dont expect you to fly from america to singapore buttt i just want you to know i love you alot...

believe me all of us do talk about you guys.
it was soo random when in the middle of having maths lesson to say we miss you alot guys.
so dont worry komal and krissey sayang.
you guys are still in our mind and most imporatntly,IN OUR HEART!

Movie update.

What can i say? the movie was great!!!Actually i am not a die hard fan of zac efron but after watching this movie,i don't mind being one of his die hard fan..His hot lah people!'His eyes is soo convincing,His body is suppeerr hoot!!!I like it when he had a makeover,in the movie of course.So people watch this,you won't regret it!It's a recommendation.Although,we don't get the best seats,we still enjoy watching the show.The movie can be called a love story and also a comedy.So its not that mushy-mushy type,you see."Kak dia hot ehk??"After the movie,i met yunos and his friends.Before he went Double O.Kakak also meet up her friend.At last i get to meet zam,real life cause i always saw him in JON handphone and without fail i will always ask Jon who he is!!cause Jon hp is flooded with his pictures and he look like Alif Aziz.Not forgetting,nice meeting you zana=)Although we don't talk that much or should i say i dont know how to start a conversation with someone.I abit shy ah.hah.